Here I am at 3am
afraid to go to sleep again
‘cause I don’t want to see
your smiling face.
Aching with the thought of you.
Questioning what I believed.
Realigning destiny,
like a star that’s falling
but having lost the magic
to make a wish come true.
Dear M…
You might think I have regrets.
If I’m really honest,
I guess I’d say I do.
They’re the very same ones
I think someday, you’ll have too;
Two kids, the dog, a house and yard
will never make up
for the center of your heart,
with a gaping hole.
And though she’ll try most anything,
there’s nothing to replace or ease
the part of you that misses me.
Dear M…
I talked to an old friend today…
According to what she reports
you’re doing really fine and
you never think of me at all.
It really makes me wonder if
you realize just who it is you’ve called?
Dear M…
There’s a few things you should know.
Like…
I never took for granted
any moments spent with you.
Laying with my head upon your chest,
wishing I was a magician,
who could take our time and wrap it up
to be opened when I need.
But…
I guess that’s what they call a memory.
Dear M…
I could say I wish I’d done things differently,
but what - and when - and why?
The things I wanted for you,
you should have wanted for yourself.
And leaving just because it wasn’t easy ~
tell me when love ever was?
Dear M…
You know the restlessness you work to numb?
The dark void that’s got you trapped and
hanging by your toes?
It makes you feel like
no one else could know
a pain that goes so very deep.
You can try, and try, and try again;
it’s something you’ll never,
ever,
reach.
(It’s me)
Dear M…
Honestly, I wish you all the best.
I hope you’ve found true happiness.
And maybe you will or won’t agree
but I know I knew and loved you better
than you ever loved yourself.
So I'm asking one last question...
Does she…?

Joyce 

Maybe, if I'm really lucky, something better will have a chance to come through now...sort of like weeding a garden...and heaven knows I'm more than ready for some "flower" instead of "weeds" to come from my pen! 
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