My dearest love,
How can I express to you, the feelings that haunt my soul?
How can I even begin to tell you what I`ve been hiding from the world for so long, hiding from myself for even longer.
It is almost suffocating my soul I cannot function anymore, clouds my mind with fear and misery.
The thought of never being in your embrace feeling your hand against my face, is excruciating agony
The thought of being alone in a dark room with no one to hold me and keep me safe, terrifies me.
The thought of no one to reassure me when I lose control of myself, makes me want to die.
God it aches when I see you make the same mistake repeatedly.
I want to scream ‘notice me for who I am’
Why can’t you love me for me?
Can’t you see how much I love you?
Can’t you see I will always love you
Yours forever





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