If i told you i cry,
Enough to keep the goldfish alive,
Would you believe me?
Would you wonder why?
Or would you laugh and say i'm stupid?
If i washed off my smile,
Showing you my deep depression
Would you say i'm too young?
Would you talk to me?
And would you share your pills with me?
If i took off my top
And showed you all my scars
What would you do?
Would you run a mile,
And be afraid of what i'm capable of?
If i showed you my notebook
Full of hatred and suicide notes,
Would you call me selfish?
Would you blame the music?
Would you punish me by taking it away?
If i said i wanted help,
Proper professional help,
Would you want to know why?
Would you let me?
Would you support me and not judge me?
If you saw me cold on the floor
Wrists bloody and overdose taken
Would you know I was secretly screaming?
Would it hit you hard to know that i've wanted this?
Would you finally realise, i've never been honest to you,
Since the moment we tried to run away from it all?





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