pain in my memory

whenever i look at
the place where your buried
that very painful memory
rushes into my mind
it feels like someone
is in there with a nail
chipping away at my skull
sometimes the pain
is far too great
and i can't bear
it at all
when it comes to
that point
i just want to
drift away
and forget all of those
haunting memories
those pictures appear
in my dreams
and nothing
can make it
go away
these visions appear
while i sleep
i awake
with a scream
why won't these memories
go away
i'm going to get
to that point
when my emotions
take control
recently these visions
are clouding my mind
the pain
far to great
to leave alone and forget
slowly i'm losing myself
who i am now
is drifting away
i no longer sleep
in fear of having
these visions
i'm no longer able
to focus well
on what i'm
supposed to do
my old self is gone
a new me is born
due to these
painful memories of mine