challenge hen?

challenging said it is
I refuse to be let down
how much I need one now!
I don't know why
I am just under stress
such an opress
such a big pain
of hate; of deception
another glorious hallucination

I am starving
I am eager to having one
I've had it with the run
stop now! stop think!
"shit man! you stink!"
I do I know! because of the disturbing memories!
because of the fear that feeds upon me!
because of the tears that cut me open!
because of the laughs I hear in the dark
I lost track! I lost faith I lost my religion
and it isn't just a song
it is a life
a real one i have been through
i have been going through
i am still stuck
not out yet!
when will I??
is the question
most people hate to ask
because the solution is a cresis too
going out of entrapment
is getting out of life
is going to be in another dimension
is to see beyond you
to see beyond what's left
to look down while you're up
but who knows what comes next anyway!
quitting is dying...?!?