Not quite there yet

I've fallen under
The dark waves have washed over me,
Full of pain and unease
Yet there's no escape.

My air is failing me.
I can't see which way to turn.
I feel as though I'm under a spell
Lost, uncertain of which path to take.

Where do I go
When I can no longer see the light from the surface?
Which way is up, which is down?
I am lost, confused.

When I think I can hold on no longer,
There is a light, so bright in the darkness.
I swim through the sea of anger
In the right direction now.

I know that I am almost there,
For the light is growing brighter.
My energy is leaving me,
I have no air.

I find the light, yet that is all it is.
A single bulb, lit up in this sea.
Yet, as I reach my hand out as if to grasp its power,
I know that I have lost, and I close my eyes.
I have submitted to the darkness.
I'm not quite there yet.