Dear Mommy

Dear Mommy,
I need you
But you never cared.
Sometimes these memories
Are way too much to bear.
I close my eyes
And see you there
Not giving a damn
About the three
Lovely girls
Who gave birth to
Well, Mommy
I hate when you
Tell me to grow-up
Move on
Let go of the past
How the fuck can I
Let go when it eats me
From inside?
And how dare you
Ask me to do
Something you never
Could.
Your past murdered
My future
I don't know how to
Move on.
Mommy, what am
I am just like you.
Scaring those I claim to
Love
Needing drugs just
To get though the day.
Mommy, I really don't get
Understand how
You could do this
To everyone.
Spend more time in the
Hospital then at home.
Steal my childhood
Fuck up my high school life
Murder my youth.
I hate that I blame
You for us
Losing everything
Why the hell couldn't
You have done it right
Once.
Mommy
I just feel so sad
All the time
Like my light at the end
Of the tunnel
Burned out
Mommy
Maybe I am just like you
Destined to fail
Destined to die by my own hand