Sitting alone in the middle of the night trying to stop my mind
From going back eight years ago to the most painful of times
My mother, my heart, confidant and yes she was my best girlfriend
My sister the other half of me, the shadow of my soul she was my very twin
They left me though I know if they could it would not have been
Seven months apart I loose my faith, my heart, everything, for awhile way back then
God had forsaken me I thought, and I was lost after I had loved him so very much
Why would he take my reasons for living; leaving me with deaths cold touch
My mother and sister had suffered for many years bodies racked with pain
The way that they suffered at the end, was horrible really inhuman
Though I wanted them to stay I prayed that he would just make it stop
Never realizing that a person could still live with their heart trapped in a closed box
I wallowed in my misery for a year or two definitely not the best of times
I now know he didn’t give up on me he was carrying me in spite of my crimes
See it is a sin to forsake your God but I believe he knew I needed the space
Watched over me all that time until once again I realized I was still covered in his grace
God did what I had prayed for when he took all of their pains away
I just had to come to terms that he had to do it, and do it his own way
March 15, 2001 and Nov 6, 2001 will never come without memories of their lost
I no longer cry for days on end and yes it still hurts but I know I’ll see them again, you know why; I heard it from the big Boss.
A contest entry
- Contest 2 of Suffering and Pain. Loss by MichaelSavage.
625 points, ended March 20, 14 entries
• next poem in this contest, remove from contest
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Oh sweetheart, I feel your pain. My mom had Lou Gherig and I prayed for her to get well. So God took her home.
Now I'm happy she is there to hold Chloe for me.
You are a brave and beautiful woman and I'm happy to call you my friend.
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Thank you my friend, My mother and sister were diabetics and both died of complications from being diabetic for over thirty years. After blindness and lost of limbs they died from kidney failure in the end. I too have come to be happy that they're no longer in pain thoough I still miss them everyday. I am honored also to call you friend. God Bless,Jo-Ann
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Very lovely poem. Yes, its nice that God does not give up on us when we are running away from him. Good luck in the contest.
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Thank you so very much for taking the time to comment it is grearly appreciated. God Bless my friend, Jo-Ann
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