Free Fall

The wind on my face is cold and harsh,
Piercing my skin, piercing my soul.
Cold as your heart.

You drove me to this,
With your taunts and your words.
Pushing and pulling me down, down, down.

The sky before me is a splash of sunset,
So beautiful, yet sad.
Another day, dead.

The ground beneath my feet is hard,
I take a step forward, and another.
One foot after the other.

Standing on the edge, looking down far below,
Everyone is so small, so insignificant.
So far, yet so close.

Another step, over the edge,
The wind rushing past, pulling my hair back, tears streaming.
Tears of joy, tears of sadness…tears of farewell.

You said I was no one, that I was nothing,
That I didn’t matter, that I should die.
And I believed you.

The ground grows larger, rushing toward me,
It will all be over soon.
No more pain, no more suffering, no more crying.

My eyes close, savoring the free fall,
The wind and tears in my hair.
I am not afraid.

The pain is there for only a moment, then all is gone.
I remember you, but I can’t remember me.
I see you, jeering and laughing.

I slip into blackness,
Peaceful oblivion.
All is forgotten, but none is forgiven.