'Useless!' he spits in my direction
forming more than words with sneers,
chipping away at self confidence
with chisels made of barbed wire.
'It will get better,' I tell myself
as tears well in the corner of eyes
(eyes that have seen too much deception),
surely I should be worth more than that.
Jugular nicked with remarks iced in venom
I sigh as I build the bricks anew,
using hands bleeding with doubt -
maybe ...
Torn perceptions of fairness
float towards pools of whispered menace:
I cover my ears with mangled fingers
in the hopes of drowning out cruelty.
Teary-eyed I face his world
with twisted thoughts racing through my mind ...
yes, he's right, I probably am useless
Please tell me what you think
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this touched a nerve for me. beautifully, emotively written, but i still cant help but think something is missing. that special something that brings a piece to life. or maybe its because i'm too tired. who knows....
brilliant work hon, good to see youre still writing ^_^ -
When one chips away and chips away some more at a person until all their self-confidence has eroded and disappeared in the wind, then it is a terrible thing. No one person should be put through that. I would rather be alone, happy and confident within myself, then with somebody who brings me down and makes me feel unhappy, useless and unwanted.
Your feelings of despair and sel-loathing really come through here in every world. And no, everything he tells you that you are, is really him attacking himself and putting it all on you. It is really HE that is full of self-loathing for himself. You are just an easy target. Very well-written.
Darkest Love
Wayne Leon
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Yikes. This poem brought up terrible memories for me. I'm sorry for these words that were spoke to you. They aren't true. I'm sure that you know that. If you don't I hope that there are people that tell you that daily.
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HUGS
You are NOT useless and he is a schmuck! I worked for a man like this for almost 3 years.. not a day went by that I didn't either go into work crying, thinking about what I was going to be blamed for, or leave crying knowing I had to come back the next day. Listen to those that love you and don't you let him steal your joy, or the joy they receive from you!
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OOPs..I forgot to drop these little guys off my first visit here..
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A very angst-filled write here. It seems to be rather personal and if so I am inclined to agree with others that have responded prior to me......
you are not useless.
**Master Ktulu** -
Those who pass the blame are almost always trying to hide their own inadequacy. Bullies are small men looking for compensation by hurting someone else.
You aren't useless, but he may very well be!
Heartfelt poetry, well written and succinct!
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you are NOT useless.
I have never heard of a dick as useless as he is. He doesn't do anything, he doesn't explain anything. If (by a miracle of foresight and telepathy) you get something right he steals the credit. If you get something wrong because OTHER people have made mistakes he blames you!
Just do your job, you know you are doing the best you can in ridiculous circumstances, and FUCK HIM!
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Powerful, sad write. Powerful emotion expressed in this piece and I think it's sad when people believe the words they are told by others as true. It makes me think of how we all have to have confidence in ourselves and appreciate ourselves for who we are within. Hope you're not feeling too badly about yourself these days, Chantell. Keep that pen flowing and take care.
Haley Mary
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never useless.
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