Post:Secrets to the other half

-You don’t know the half of what I have done, like your friends and I have drank.
-I have smoked cigarettes and pot and still do the latter.
-I have bottles of wine downstairs you know nothing about.
-Sometimes I worry about you, at other times I wish you were dead.
-I think of ways of disposing of you too.
-I used to get so mad at you I would hurt myself so you would feel sorry for me, but it didn’t work
-I would break things and blame others.
-I would also cover up what the kids did too so they didn’t get into trouble.
-I told you lies when I did something I wasn’t supposed to do or to cover up some illicit thing I did
-I was the one that blew the engine in the vehicle.  I never told you that.
-sometimes I wish you didn’t come home because nothing changes when you do.
-I am in love with someone I can never have and who I will never meet but can turn me on like no other
-I have days when I hate myself.
-I am healing from a mental illness but the ‘bad’ ‘negative’ feelings feel so good sometimes I fall.  They hurt.  But most of all they hurt the ones I love
-I have hurt many in the past with behaviour I have had no control over.  In some cases, I don’t even want to know what these people thought of me because I must have made quite the scenes sometimes.