Rain

If I had the luxury of experiencing more than one love in a lifetime without having to hurt someone or be hurt then I would be with you in a heartbeat right now. If there was no one else in my life I'd give you another chance. It hurts that I can't now...but I just can't justify ditching someone I truly care about and has never hurt me for someone who has hurt me countless times and left the deepest scars.

It comes, every month, something deep inside me breaks and I can't hold back tears. I hope it doesn't last forever...I hope someday the wounds scab over and I can cover them with clothes or makeup.

I guess it's the romantic in me that lements over the bad timing that life handed us. If only one thing was changed you might be next to me right now...it kinda kills to think about it. It hurts even more to know I can't give you the life you wanted, and now you're stuck. It was a life we both wanted at some point. Once you came around it was too late though...

There are many times I thought I knew what the future had in store and now that I'm living in it, I can see I was definately wrong. Will we ever be returned to our former glory? We' may never again be those two kids on bikes just happy to be together again or two passionate lovers quarreling in public abruptly ending said argument with a kiss or intertwined in a sea of sheets. I do love you, I know I probably always will. I hope you're happy. It would make me so happy to know you are.