Standing in
the vanity area
in my bathroom,
contemplating the face in the mirror,
a bleak moment approached.
Outraged by
an urge to cry -
disappointed when
I could not.
Of course.
Of course there were no tears.
Not then.
Hardly ever.
I could only stand stiffly –
bare feet to the tile floor,
hair up in a clip,
face freshly washed,
in mismatched nightdress,
blankly gazing at my reflection…
my pathetic state staring me down.
I clenched my Blackberry.
As I imagined
heaving the piece of
life-siphoning technology
across the bathroom and
into the glass shower doors,
the inescapable
compulsion
to check my
professional e-mail
forced my finger to the
appropriate button.
There
I found his encouraging words:
“Hang in there.”
I walked
out of the bathroom,
into my bedroom,
plugged in my Blackberry,
crawled into bed,
with
just an ounce
left.
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Though, I've already commented, reading this again reminds me that I rarely cry myself. I mean, sometimes during emotional scenes during movies; I'm a sensitive guy deep down
but other than movies, barely ever. However, I've been listening to this song by The Refreshments called "Mekong", and for some reason that has been choking me up for some reason. It's not an emotional song. It's pretty much about spending time in a bar, and nothing else. And, I don't go to bars. I haven't been in a bar in 11 years, and even then I didn't drink any alcohol, I keep listening to the song wondering why it's choking me up. I have no idea. I've had the CD since it first came out in 1996 and in all that time, though I think it's a good song, it never had such an effect on me 'til recently.
Perhaps it's a reminder of all the funerals I've been attending recently (5 in the past 2 years), and one of the main subjects of the song is being happy and living life, I don't know. These things aren't really things I think about too often.
eh.
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Eric Stone's version of that song is outstanding. You should take a listen.
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"bear feet to the tile floor," -- did you mean "bear" or did you mean "bare"? though I can see "bear" working in the context it's in.
A part of this reminded me that I accidentally washed my cell a few weeks ago...been meaning to get that replaced. eh.
A lot of depth in this poem, anger, resentment, all the things I love.
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Hahaha
That's funny! I meant "bare." But, the night I wrote this I was feeling like a "bear."
Thanks!
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very contemporary .... i've got the T-Shirt. I remember once way long ago, my g/f and i over summer filled my bottom desk drawer with paper letters. I think i liked that better.
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