Double Or Nothing

I make Lawyers seem like honest men
Because every time I talk to you,
Lies take form in my eyes,
I have a sharp tongue,
And I'm not afraid to use it
Every time I say I don't miss you,
Or I don't want you back
You know its a slip of the tongue,
I must be a pretty damn good actress
Because when you're around
I smile like this hole in my chest
Isn't trying to consume me,
Like my pillows haven't seen a
Single tear since that Thursday

But that's the exact opposite,
Because to tell you the truth,
I hate not hearing your voice everyday
And my walls are probably tired of hearing
How much I miss you when I'm alone
I hate the way I can't seem to keep
These memories out of my head
And I know you know the ones I'm talking about
I'm losing sleep over this,
Because I can't seem to keep your face
Out of my dreams
And I keep catching myself wondering
If you're even thinking about me
And if you're feeling like I am
Because I'm not ready to let you go...
On the other hand,
I'm not ready to spill my
Guts out in front of you
Because I'm not a friend of rejection
And you've got my self esteem at an all time low
But I must be pretty good at
Hiding my bruised up ego
Because you haven't seen me slip once
But every time you turn your back,
My hand goes straight for the empty hole in my chest
And Every smile I give you
Is  a forced effort of me trying to
Keep you locked up with the skeletons in my closet

You know this isn't working for me...
It's time to talk,
So stop playing it off like you never heard me
When I bring this up
Because I'm not gonna pretend like nothing ever happened
Because we both know that's not true
And you know I'll wait for you...
But I can't wait forever...
Time is running short
And I don't have daylight to burn
And Next time I see you,
You're gonna get this little speech...

It's time to put all of our chips on the table...
Double or nothing,
Deal me in...
We're gonna talk about this...