if i were more romantic

if i were more romantic,
every time i saw you our hands would be together
i would tell people that you are my boyfriend--
which you are--
instead of telling them
"he's this boy. i think we're going out?"
i would draw hearts on the notes i give you
i would run my hands through your hair
instead of just laughing at your bangs.

if i were more romantic,
i'd buy a ukulele,
just to learn romantic songs and play them in the hallway
and when people asked me why, i'd say,
"because i like him."
(y'know i kinda want to do that anyway)
i would stop showing your picture to gay guys.
(no i wouldn't.)
i would get my acapella band to sing to you
(Brown Eyed Girl)
i would bake you brownies
rather than write poems you'll never see.

If i were more romantic,
i would kiss you.
That's right, i'd straight up kiss you.
On the cheek, but that still counts.
and we'd cuddle at lunch
and i'd stop calling you a bitch when you beat me at cards.

I'm not romantic,
but i really am trying.
i hope you don't care
when i call you names,
when i show your picture to gay guys,
when i am too shy to hold your hand.
I really am trying for you, dear,
and im going to keep trying,
and who knows
maybe one day i'll pick up the ukulele.

'cause, you're my brown eyed girl.