crush

my hands shake
i break out in a sweat
the longing
yearning
a need so intense,
it drives me crumpled to my knees
to tears
an ache that takes over
mind, body,heart and soul

never have i felt something so real
true
pure
i can honestly tell you i love you
the way you feel
taste
come into my body
fill me to the core
help my spirits to soar
i trusted you with my life
let you into me

yet here i am
crumpled
crying
dying
i long for a caress i can not have
a kiss so deadly
so sinfully delicious
it sends a shock right through me to my brain

a deep inhale
a bitter reminder
off how good you were to me
before it all went wrong
i crushed you
cut you
into a fine white line
we loved
i've lost
it all
my mind
my life
to you
my beautiful
deadly wife
you knew me better than a lover
loved me better than a mother
with on kiss
on intake of breath
and i was hooked
eternity
with you in my arms
heaven
a haven
with out you my body aches
my arms once so lovingly kissed
marked with your love
fall empty
dead without
to my sides

my life has become death without you
my mind no longer makes sense
you were always there to clear it all away
to help me through the day

but you've been taken from me
they tell me i will die if i dont give you up
they dont kow, without you
i'm already dead

and all i've left to live with
is the voices in my fucked up head

they tell me i'm so much better than this
that i dont need you
yet still
i can't imagine
a life with out you in my arms

a kiss so deadly
a love so strong
i am powerless without you