The Right Words

How would I tell you what it feels like to stand beneath a waterfall and feel the touch of every drop of water, not being able to distinguish those that hurt from those that don't, but wanting to never move?


How do I express what it feels like to want to let go and not be afraid,  yet at the same time hold on for dear life to the barrier that's kept me safe all this time?


How do I say that the idea of abandoning my cautions reminds me of how it must feel to jump off of a cliff, unsure of your parachute.


How do I tell you that I think I know what a puppy feels like when she rolls over and exposes her vulnerable belly, trusting that she wont be hurt... and how that puppy is more courageous than me.


How do I tell you that I am so terrified of losing what I think I might have, that I'd almost rather not admit that I have it.


How do I put into words what butterflies feel like as they take flight, catching my breath under their wings and quickening my heart.


How do I tell you what the world looks like through new eyes, what songs sound like to new ears, what tears taste like through a new smile.


How could I possibly write about what it feels  like to miss something I've never really touched, but that has touched me so deeply I can think of nothing else.


How would I write about the fear that grips me when I consider that one day you see past who and what you believe me to be, and see who I've always been.


How do I make you understand what it feels like to sit here thinking of you, wanting to tell you about the rain on my back, my hair in my face.


How do I tell you what it feels like to close my eyes at night and imagine your touch, to feel your skin, and to kiss your lips, and how I wake imaging those same things.


How would I express the exhilaration I feel when, with only your words you make my heart skip a beat, and cause my hands to tremble and how it steals my breath each time.


How do I tell you how scary it is up on this pedestal you've put me on, and to consider that one day, I might fall.


How can I make you understand how it feels to tingle from head to toe when I know your thinking about me and to believe that you feel it too?


How do I tell you what it feels like to want to share the simplest of things with you, like how the raindrops looks hitting the puddle.


How would I make you know how incredible you make me feel, how much you make me smile and how light you make me walk?


How do I express how it feels to have known I would never be safe in anyones care... and then to feel exactly that in yours?


How do I put into words what it feels like to have wondered what a soul mate is.... and to suddenly feel like I understand... to feel that I need that presence so much, that even though I can only feel it through echos on the wind, the idea of not having it at all is much more painful.


How would I write about the fear I have in even sharing these things with you, knowing it exposes me in a way that I've never been.


I don't know how I would tell you these things... the right words just wont come.