Hope stands still

im sick of these feelings i dont wanna cry anymore
im tired of hurting and shutting the door
exhausted and running is all that I do
trying to escape the hurt you put me through
a day in peace without you there
i'm finally rid of you i swear
then without a warning I crash and burn
a haunted memory my stomach churns
the room is spinning my heart begins to race
why did you abandon me in such a place
wounded and scared a lonely path
my love for you has turned to wrath
trusting another and letting go
terrified to let my feelings show
what I thought was true was all a lie
so how do i prevent it with another guy
I start to believe it is different, it's not the same
but somehow it's a twisted game
no way out, no signs to show
just a risk involving letting go
swallowing my fears my heart stands still
my insecurities could kill
and yet despite all the dark fate throws a single rope
and there among all the lost shines a bit of hope