A fool was I to be so blind
As my own ignorance turned away from your pain
Walking away into the light
Leaving you to stand alone-
Alone in the darkness of your hell
How could I be so cold?
Living a lie, thinking everything was all
right
Until it was too late….
So now you lay before me
The sight has left your eyes
Now I see you suffer
In this madness that you fight
And now I catch myself crying
When I should had cried before
So now you lay before me
As death knocks on your door
I don’t see how I missed it
I thought myself to be wise
I guess it goes to show me
There is more important things to life
Oh how I wish I could, rewind into the past
And change all of the mistakes
And walk another path
So now you lay before me
Fighting for your life
A life that you want to end
It may be too late to make it right
I silently hold your hand
As I cry into the night
As you lay before me, barely clinging onto life
And now I feel your pain
As my heart breaks right in two
I just don’t understand it
How I wasn’t there for you
Begging for your forgiveness
And praying to God above
So now you lay before me
As I stand here all alone
Lisa ‘09
Author notes
This is written for my cousin Mike- he attempted suicide February 28, 2009 by shooting himself in the head. He has a 50/50 chance of survival and is now blind and has severe brain damage. If he lives he will be a vegetable for the rest of his life- I was just too blind to see and didn't take his threats of suicide seriously. I wish I could rewind time- I would had been there and listened better.
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oh my god
this is heartbreaking..very sad my friend i'm so very sorry for your pain..ironic(to me, my friend felt this muc pain and sadness)as it happened on my birthday..
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oh my i am so sorry
this is so powerful,I will pray that a miracle happens
and for God to ease your pain.. this is such a tremdously sad write ...my heart goes out to you and your family
Blessings
Rend
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Rend hun you are just too kind a soul- It seems odd to me that lately everyone has been suffering agony with death. My own frustration and stress has made me temporarilly loose my own desire to write (I just feel as if I'm not doing as well as I was before). I just had to write something for my dear cousin though, even though it may not be a poetical masterpiece- but it is true cries from my own heart- I really wish I would had listened to him better and took him more seriously, maybe I could had been there for him and made a difference in the decission that he had chose. I am overwhelemed with shame and guilt- which is ripping my heart apart........
Bless you hun, you have now graced me with your kindness twice and I truly appreciate your soothing sweet words..........thank you so very much. -
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please don't carry it on your
shoulders,I understand why but you can not torment your self my friend its not what God wants you to do, He wants you to think positive, you are Mikes strongest prayer warrior because of your love for him. and most importantly ask God to calm your heart and take the guilt and shame away, because He is not a God that enforces that upon us.
I will continue to pray for you my Dear new friend
Blessings
Rend
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