Words

"dear diary,
I'm writting in your bullshit pages
because my shrink is crazier than i am.
He thinks you're therapy."

I feel so crazy at times
I just want to runaway
I want to be on the beach 24/7
I wish i could be free

Life sucks
Life is life

I want to question this world
I just dont know what to ask
I cant put words together
I long for something...

"you may have noticed,
I'm not all there myself."

I've been crying alot
Over emotional since his death
Crazy about everything
Wanting something...

I cant figure it out
I dont know what i want
I hate myself sometimes
I wish everything was better

Words are difficult
Words are harmful
Words are fearful
Words are life

"i know what it's like to want to die.
How it hurts to smile.
How you try to fit in but cant.
How you try to hurt yourself on the outside
To try and kill the thing on the inside."

I am lost
Lost in myself
Save me
Take me away from my mind.