You Say...

why did you say it would work
how come we had to beat ourselves up
im only as strong as you,
i sit in the corner beating myself crying,
tried and tried so hard
to show even the folks when it didnt work
as i sit here and ponder why
tryin to make sense of the two months trying,
the times we spent was great
they meant more than you ll ever know


i even got physical to myself and punched
my self emotional ly and tormented my arm,
hopin this pain could just end

no i didnt cut my wrist,
i was bent over; arms crossed around my knees
crying into my lap begging please,
as i drank myself to sleep, i got loud to my mom
and felt bad as i just weeped

why do your parents take control?
why did you say you were trying to protect me
when you couldnt even stand up for yourself?
if this were war we'd be dead
just because the things i might have said,



i sit in crying shame
maybe im no good for a single soul,
might as well hide
and maybe in my next life be something great,
'cause im not right
not right in the head as i lay and ponder
what could of been done