When I go home after school,
I think of how you make me feel like a fool.
You make me wiggle and squeal
And I'm excited for this type of deal.
Every morning when I wake up
I'm just like a newborn pup.
I get excited when I start to think
That maybe sometime you might give me a wink.
When you put your arms around me
I feel just like I could run free.
My heart starts to pound
And my head spins around.
Every time you squeeze my sides for fun
I laugh and smile like my life had just begun.
You make me so happy
And I don't see how my mood could ever turn crappy.
I look forward to seeing you
And I really just want to stick to you like glue.
When I catch you looking my way
I don't want to start to look astray.
Your eyes seem to catch me off guard
And then my feelings start to bombard.
My mind begins to go crazy
And my legs feel like the wind dancing with a daisy.
You are the everything I've wanted
And my dreams never get too haunted.
You are an amazing friend
But there's something I must defend.
My beliefs should not go unnoticed
Though I treat them like they're the remotest.
It's difficult for me to tell you this,
Especially when I'm in a place of complete bliss.
My stomach starts to flutter
And I think you'll say I'm some type of nutter
But I have to tell you this thing
So you won't be tempted to cling.
I am filled with the feeling of guilt
Whenever I think of what I had built.
He took it away from me in a second
When I thought that he had beckoned.
My heart was shattered into pieces
And now I know what it feels like when love ceases.
I can't even begin to think of that
For fear of turning into a complete brat.
I have felt my heart stutter within my chest
Whenever I think of just how blessed
I was for him to come into my life.
Then he took it all away and left me with a strife.
There was no doubt in my mind
That I could feel so much combined
And not have him hurt me that way
But his words left me in complete disarray.
So now I have to relay this message
Without doing too much damage.
I want to keep you happy
But I'm afraid that this will make you unhappy.
I don't want to hurt you at all.
I can't guaruntee that I won't fall
Because I'm trying to protect us both
So we won't get swept up in some kind of oath.
I've been hurt too badly before
And I can't deal with that anymore.
I am scarred from that experience
So I have to have some distance.
I'm so sorry to do this to you
But I can't get you wrapped up in all this hullabaloo.
I'm sorry because what I feel when you're around
Isn't something that I can keep bound.
You make me feel so happy and joyous
And with your arms around me with such calmness
I can't help but be exuberant
Yet at the same time feel a little bit poignant.
I want you to keep me close in your arms
And I want you to never let go of these charms.
Keep making me happy as ever
But don't make me say this again... not ever.
Author notes
This is kind of a weird one.... I am hurting because I feel guilty for letting this guy hold me this way when people are starting to think we're going out... I told Daniel to break up with someone because he wasn't 16 yet, and now I'm doing something that's making me hurt him though he doesn't know about it... I can't deal with it for very long, and I don't want to have to tell this guy to back off because he makes me so happy. But if it keeps going farther into an actual relationship, I won't ever forgive myself because Daniel and I broke up because we're weren't 16... and won't be for another 6 months...
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Outstanding
I needed the footnotes to fully understand the poem. I liked how you expressed your feelings at the beginning : I'm just like a newborn pup.
I got a real sense of all the excitement of falling in love the poem then becomes more serious and you are faced with a major dilemma not knowing what to do for the best. Difficult to know what to suggest. This poem has excellent flow and the rhyme was well-chosen. An intriguing poem.
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Well Written
You contained and concentrated your pain, fear, and joy in this poem very well. The vocabulary is really great, and the imagery, even better. The only sugestion I have is, sorry to be a grammar nazi, that "to much" should be "too much"
Now some free advice, don't get caught up in a realationship that is going to hurt you, either directly or by hurting Daniel, if this guy you have found really makes you this happy then thats great, amazing, sounds alot like true love. I am sure you both have good intentions, but the road to hell is paved with good intentiions. If he loves you, truly loves you, then he will be okay with slowing down or backing off. In essence, wait, wait until you are comfortable. Then go for it.
May Darkness Gaurd You,
DW
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Why thank you for advice on both views. I very much appreciate that.
And I'm going to write another poem about what happened with that guy cuz it was really weird. I'll let you know when I finish it. 
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I look forward to it immensly,
Darkness Gaurd You,
Your Friend,
DW
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