The day will rise, you’ll be taken away.
Another jail sentence is forthcoming,
Will there be any tear drops falling then?
Have I now cried out possibilities?
Does the judge know your family’s names now?
Does he feel for us the shame imparted?
Or does he sit there, not feeling a thing?
I understand the reasoning you had,
Yet, it hurts me more than you seem to know?
“Fuck Cops” tattooed across your shiny head!
What were you thinking, son, when you did that?
“White Pride” is another thing that I see,
No comprehension when that lie entered.
I don’t even want to understand it.
I told your wife I can’t be in between.
It tears me apart to see tears falling
And I know I’ll probably never see…
(Excuse me while I wipe away my tears)
I’ll probably never see my grandson,
And I haven’t done a thing to cause it.
Son, I used to cry when you went away.
I don’t think I have it in me again.
The dehydration in my soul is great
And turbulence has now left me shaking.
There is nothing I can do for your choice,
I only wish you had chosen my own.
Six months, minimum, for the assault, son;
Fifteen years possible for the other.
Where you will be, I do not even know.
I only know that you won’t be with me
And I wonder do you take time to care.
Are you institutionalized beyond…
Beyond redemption and all that it holds.
I guess there is nothing left to say, son.
Only that I will be writing often,
That I’ll send money if I have any,
That I’ll take your collect calls when I can,
That I’ll hold your picture throughout the night
And that somewhere, I’ll find another tear.
Author notes
i know there are some capitalization errors. i am just too upset after writing this to give a darn. maybe later i will fix it but not right now.
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Incredible. I can feel your hopelessness in this piece.This is a very heartfelt poem. The words weighed heavily on my heart when I read them. No matter how painful this is, he is a reminder of why we should never return to our addictions. Don't give up hope. Remember how long it took us to find our bottom before we turned towards help. It can happen for him and by the grace of God it will happen for him too.
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This poem can be felt by every mother who has watched a hard headed child walk into a court room knowing the next steps are to a prison cell. I've watched a nephew who I practically raised walk that walk so many times. No matter how you try to harden your heart for your own sake, the tears turn into rivers just the same.And it's not just the sons who bring them on. I think if you change one word of this poem you'll take away from it. I really enjoyed reading this.
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Great...
truely inspiational, i really love this, great right, and i hope that it all works out for your son... 5 stars
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This was emotionally heartfelt. I felt as if I were reading a letter to someone I know personally. My heart goes out to you. And I know sometimes these things are hard to face, but keep writing. When I was going through cancer, writing was the only thing that helped me cope...that and God...but I will keep you in my prayers and thoughts.
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I'm so sorry that you are going through such a difficult time. This is sucha heartfelt write. My prayers go out to you and your family.
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Vinyanna, I left home when I was 15 years old and have been on my own ever since. Fro that first day I left, my mother cried herself to sleep every night, until I went to prison and then she stopped crying. She stopped crying because she knew I was safe,
My heart goes out to you and I will keep you in my prayers.
God Bless
Bill
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forgot the well earned applause!
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A mother's nightmare for sure.
I have not had that terrifying experience - you really poured your heart and soul out in this poem - the honesty is raw as are you with your ravaged heart. Keep writing, keep on track around who is responsible here - don't waste a tear wishing YOU had done something- everything different. Your life will not be barred away. Excellent all around - and inner peace for you will be found. -
Viyanna, this is very heart breaking and such a terribly reality. I am sorry that you are going through such trying and difficult times. I hope and wish only the best for you, your son, and your family.
We all make mistakes in life and I don't know exactly the actions your son took but, I hope that he has learned from it and can move past that life.
I wish you and your son all the best and pray that things turn around for the better really soon! Take care my friend and good luck to you!
Jeremy0826
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The dehydration in my soul ... what a brilliant line. I remember the times I watched when my son had to go to jail; once it was because I called them on him. He stole some antique jewelry from a lady he worked for. All she wanted was the jewely back and an apology ... he refused. I told him it was either that or I call the police since I knew where the "loot" was. He said, "Do what you have to do, I have to take a shower." so while he showered away the days dirt, I called and when he got out of the shower, the police were there. They cuffed him, read him his rights and took him away. I wept until I was sick ... it does feel like the soul is dehydrated. My heart goes out to you and I will keep your family in my prayers
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