lost between me and lianna

i look inside myself,
wondering who this person is.
Where did she come from?
lost between reality, the past,future, and present.
with Lianna trying to take over...
so confused always angry,
wanting to kick someones ass.

having people trying to force shit on you,
even though you resist.
taken advantage of,
feel like shit,
chosing between the blade and his love.

needing to stop loving the touch,
cant stop myself.

see these scars are deeper than my skin,
its all internal and more than most can read.
asked questions,
people trusting me to do whats right...
oh ya because lately i have been so good with that
ya right!
its from one thing to another..
alcohol, to smoking, to cutting and throwing up.

i wish he wouldnt trust me and i could stop hurting him..
but he cant see it would be best for him to stay away from my
broken messed up soul.