KnOwInG

Knowing is an awful, wonderful thing

There are things I know -things that could hurt and heal

Things that cut deep, things that are REAL

Knowing truths - reality- -  biting and sweet~

Does KNOWING help? Heal?

I have something - something that is..was..NO..is REAL

Wishing for it to go away does nothing

What is...still IS

I don't want it to go away anyway - it is part of me - half of me

KNOWING what I know...something was made

Of 2 halves, a whole was formed...created...then - - gone

Without one half KNOWING

I am sorrowed for that...full of sorrow for the ignorance..secrets kept in the dark

But NOT sorry..what was...happened for a reason -

Going through an awful, wonderful, enlightening experience changed me

Better, worse, sadder, more peaceful, wiser, emptier, held, heartbroken

CHANGED...all because of KNOWING

I knew..I lived...I lied..I loved...I learned..I was LEFT..to ponder - why

I KNOW...but he does not.

He never will.