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what keeps me up at night

 

i.

 

I just want to help them. Why can't they just see that? If they want me to be the leader, than let me lead. I don't understand why no one trusts me. Honestly, if they call me "father", why don't they act like I care. May I should resign and step away for awhile.

 

ii.

 

I didn't know it was crime to think for myself. Did someone forget to send me that memo? Because I'm tired of people trying to define who I am by who they aren't and never can be. Don't make me the second chance you never got. I am my own life and you will not ruin it for me.

 

iii.

 

I know I don't have a job and I know I can't drive, but I'm still trying to be the best boyfriend I know how. You don't think it corrodes the very core of me to think about such things? I ache and being to tear up in the corners of each eye when those thoughts approach my mind. I sometimes feel like you could have done so much better and that I'm only a fallacy in a love story. I do try my best to make you happy, I really do.

 

iv.

 

Will you listen to me please? After all, even the listener needs a listener. And right now, even though the lights are dim and I should be sleeping,

 

all I can do is think and I need to talk to you.

 

Author notes

Pic Credit: http://darkserge.deviantart.com/art/Awake-11268609

So, this is probably the most personal write I've ever penned. I've had a lot on my mind and I needed to get it out.

AP Name: lowercase prelude

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  • mgmc gold member
    August 4

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    Well Written

    The emotions definitely come through. Wrenching. I could certainly identify with your words. Very well written. I hope it was therapeutic for you. I'm new to poetry and this site but learn each time I read something I admire!


  • KatherineAnne
    July 8

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    Wow. I really love the flow and all of the emotion in this piece. Truly a great write.
    Thank you for your entry and goodluck in the contest.

    -Kati


  • Sempre da soli
    June 22
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    awww.

    this is really sweet and i really love the flow and language goodluck


  • Blasphemous Girl
    April 11

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    Amazing

    This made me think about so many people in my life. Reading this reminded me of my Dad, he often says "Maybe I should just resign from being your father," and I know sometimes he feels like a bad husband too. I feel this pain. The pain in this poem.
    I can also relate myself, I often lay awake at night, just thinking, and when this happens, my heart aches. I am sorry you feel this way. It's a real bad way to feel.

    About the last line,
    Talk to her. You need to.

    Thanks for entering my contest x


  • Violent Glass
    March 19

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    thing that can keep a person up at night... i have alot of thoughts, it takes me a min. of 2 hours lying in bed trying to sleep...i hope your thoughts dont bother you much longer... this, i think, is a great write! i hope your doing ok.
    thanx for sharing w/ me


  • Immortal Obscurity Greeters member
    March 5

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    This is awesome, Chris. I know the feelings you've written here, and I could understand every word. Well done, and thanks for sharing this with the group.

    Laura


  • borrowing.moonlight gold member
    March 5

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    wow, this is so deep. your emotions are so true and pure. i love how you spaced it all, and very aptly named. thank you much for entering


  • Silent Emotions
    March 4

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    Deep and emotional, but of course you already know that because you wrote it. =p

    I really really like this though. It pulls at my heart strings, & I can relate in some ways to your words. Especially in verse II.

    Beautifully penned.


  • movedon
    March 4

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    Chris, this is so beautiful!! I love the line "every listener needs a listener!" because thats true and i feel this way often. i help my fiance and friends thru things and at night i lay there and think, "w....w...wait a minute...whos gonna listen to me?!"

    this was stunning, by far your best work yet.

    love ya bro!
    mylee


  • Sharitti
    March 4

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    WOW!! The wording in your poem is so well written. So many of your feelings can be related to so much. I can definately feel the emotion in this poem. Excellent job!! I really loved reading it.


  • broken-colours
    March 3
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    :[


  • Katilina
    March 3
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    It was love that kept us going through the years


  • Bean Sidhe silver member
    March 3

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    This seems dangerously close to a post secret type poem. I was particularly drawn to:

    "I know I don't have a job and I know I can't drive, but I'm still trying to be the best boyfriend I know how. You don't think it corrodes the very core of me to think about such things? I ache and being to tear up in the corners of each eye when those thoughts approach my mind. I sometimes feel like you could have done so much better and that I'm only a fallacy in a love story. I do try my best to make you happy, I really do."

    Primarily because I lost my job six months ago and my boyfriend moved 1000 miles that same week. I don't drive - and really, have no desire to start. And somehow, there always seems to be that one person that thinks I am faulty because of that. Thankfully, it is never him. He accepts me in all my imperfections and eccentricities (and they are many!). So, I find myself very lucky.

    Keep writing personal pieces of this nature and you will find your way through. You are gifted and your words will light the way.

    - Beȧn


  • dwellondreams
    March 3
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    this is wonderfully done. i absolutely loved it. thank you for writing,


  • Viyanna Rosemarie silver member
    March 3

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    Don't make me the second chance you never got. I am my own life and you will not ruin it for me.

    i am new at this setting boundaries thing and this so describes how i have been feeling lately.

    in the third stanza, i believe that's where, you forgot to capitalize an i.

    this is fantastic and you should be proud of the job you have done. i wish you well in this contest you have entered and am so looking forward to reading more from you in the near future. viyanna rosemarire



  • jcat gold member
    March 3

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    I share alot these thoughts with you.....I am a stay at home mother and often am looked over, not listened too....and jut plain ignored! I never get a thank you or even acknowledged for all that I do! The things that keep me up at night....**sigh** I do understand your pain....This was deep and full of those tumultuous emotions! Well done and I hope you find peace for your soul soon.


  • Blackbird Writer
    March 3
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    Chris...
    Are you okay?


  • Howard Manser gold member
    March 3

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    Quite Profound!

    Don't we too often miss this part, "Because I'm tired of people trying to define who I am by who they aren't and never can be. Don't make me the second chance you never got. I am my own life and you will not ruin it for me."

    Very astute :) -Howard 


    Note: typo the>they

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