Even Though You Aren't Here

I stare past your eyes
To look deep in your heart
If I am in love tonight
Where will this lead off?
I could hold you in my arms
Or push you far away
I'll make it so you can't have me
Because I don't deserve your love
Or anybodies

I'm swirling in this world we call life
And I'm tumbling through the streets
Running past the alley ways
I'm not sure of who I am
But I'm sure it doesn't matter anymore

I'm drowning in my own foolishness
Of drugs and alcohol
That I can't let go of
Tell me I'll be okay
Even if I push you away

I cry each night
In hate of who I've become
This isn't who I am
And I am just a broken soul
Stuck in my old sturdy body
Because seventeen isn't so sweet
When I feel you drifting away
My best friend, I love you
Every flaw, every musical note you play
Pick me up, and hold me close
Every time I yell at you
I'm only begging for you to tell me
You and me
We're going to be okay...
You never do
Never have
What does that say
About were each of us are going?

It doesn't matter
I'm sure of that
As long as your breathing by next year
It will make me happy to say
I was there for you to fall on
Even though you weren't there