the hardest thing to do is watch the someone you love be happy with someone else...

i don't know how i could've ever tried to let him go. i knew i wanted him from the beginning, its too late now all the laughs and the kisses we shared and how he made me feel special is all gone now  and there is nothing left.

im devistated on the inside but ok on the out, my heart is broken but i can't change the past.
though i wish i could've said things i know its not going to happen anymore.
he's with her and they are happy together. everything i thought was even a glimmer of hope
wasn't. i wanted to be with him and show him what i could have been, what we could be, but whatever i had said to him before is erased away.

he was everything to me and i threw it away for a "what could've been"  i didn't know it then, but i loved him and now that i realized i did. its too late. he's with her and nothing can change that i watch him say how happy he is without me and how everything i did was nothing special i watch him pass me up and not even look at me once. i just want more than i can chew, he's my heart and we belong. throwing away the deepest of the deep and the fullest of the full.

Love is beautiful and you are love. When everything turns into to darkness there is no hope that won't provide light. Once you realize that life is life and life is love and living life is being with the one you love, you'll never want to say that you hate life. Appreciate those moments because free will sucks, so does time, when you make a mistake you can never change back to fix it.

but maybe, just maybe its those mistakes that make you see what its like to be wrong and flawed and know that you aren't perfect and to just be happy with what God gave you.

I know he  still thinks about me and all the great times we had, just like i do now...... but nothing can change about how i feel about him and how he feels about her.