You Send Me.....

Look baby,
Now, maybe I might just be guessin’
But, its been impressing on me to say this.
For some reason, it seems that you feel less then.
And it seems that somehow I feel less then at my best
Sense I hadn’t addressed it yet.

I can see that your mannerisms have been swaying a bit,
And your behavior, slightly changing a bit
And you’ve been trying to avoid saying some shit
You truly feel….
Only because you truly feel for me.
And sense you’ve been the only thing real to me
And you deal with me, when no one else did,
I need to appeal to you ‘cus I think I know exactly what
This is.

Now the truth is, I do remember when I used to say things like,
“baby, please take my pain away”.
“please stay with me”. when I was sick,
“come with me when I pick out a house
Or some clothes”
And “I offer you this rose to symbolize my affection”.
Or when I say “to me, you are perfection”.
But it has come to my attention that
As of late, these words, I hadn’t mentioned.

So let me get this underway.
First, just let me say,
“I do love you”.
Even though I don’t always speak of it.
Baby girl, you send me, come to think of it.
From beginning to ending,
But, lately it’s like you’ve been patiently waiting
On me to stop defending this
Fortress, no….this prison
Existing in my heart,
And start letting your
Invading party, no….. your completely able army
Of troops armed with hugs and kisses
penetrate me and overtake me,
and proclaim it's independence.
A love so exquisite, although for a time
I didn’t make regular visits.
All of that’s been missing
And all because of me.

At first, I didn’t know what it could possibly be
That was making you feel this way.
I’d leave for work each and every day and
I always give you a kiss on my way out the door.
The sun ain’t never beat me home.
And I don’t drink or smoke weed any more.
I don’t spend long hours out with none of my friends,
And if I did, I’m always in no later then 10.
I always help around the house,
I always take the trash out,
I treat you kids the same way I treat my kids,
So because of those actions,
I couldn’t understand what it was I did
To get you in this state.
You know I can’t stand to see
That kind of look on your sweet face.
that’s what would break my heart.

Now, here’s why I think these thing have been happenin‘,
As of late, I know I haven’t been tappin’ in
To that hopeful, not hopeless romantic in me.
I allowed him to be….muffled a bit
By life on life consequence;
Forgettin’ that.... its good to SEE
That you can depend on me,
But, sometimes you need confirmation
That I’m aware that love does speak.

It spoke its loudest
When it wasn’t clouded with
Day to day stresses, and those every day messes,
Or by me just being used to being around you
And forgettin’
How much you love to hear me expressin
My affection by saying things like
“Baby, you send me”.
And what your beauty does
Is lend me coffee colored images,
Allowing my to witness
Another type of bliss
And live in the midst of heaven
When I’m in you presence.

I was forgettin’ that
You are an extension of me
And I you.
One….not two separate beings,
So without you I’m sick
Without you, I’m prone to get
This condition that may need daily treating
‘cus seeing you, takes my breath away.
Each and every day
And I don’t care how problematic it gets
I just can’t stay away
And the only medication that I’ll take
Or that they could prescribe me is….
A double dose of me
Gazing deeply into your eyes
4 to 5 times a day or as needed
And if they don’t have that
I’ll go buy something over the counter that reminds me that
Baby you send me.

We blend together perfectly
Like hazelnut cream and Folgers.
When I come home from work,
All I want to do is just hold you
And expose you
To all that energy I had accumulate
From thinking about you all GatDamn day.

Baby you send me
Like at first I was half empty
Until you filled me
And now, my cup runneth over.

Baby you send me to places
Time and space is
Not even capable of altering.

And if I forget again
How far you send me,
How much you give me
A reason to be in love,
Just whisper in my ear,
“Darling, you send me”,
And I’ll whisper back…..
Honest you do….
Promise you do….
Lady you do….
Send me.