Estranged from love by heaven above
On tattered wings, I fall from grace
I've no sanctury or shelter thereof
An amorphus newborn adrift in space
Existance has fallen away
And nothing more will ever seem to matter
With no resistance at all to sway
All I am will simply cease & start to shatter
Agonys caress becomes endless emptiness
And I feel i've lost the very will to feel at all
Still I cry to calm this retching restlessness
And pray for absolution, please heed my call
A void slowly parts within the nothingness
Sounding a mute clarion, calling to its embrace
Coalescing my essence, so broken in distress
Perditions' cacophony begins to fade and erase
I see an end to all fleeting times
As a sigh of solace escapes from my last breath
The last moment of the final hour chimes
And my companion misery is left bereft
I shed my fear, now free of shame
The light no longer blinds my opened eyes
Enchanted in the divinity that calls my name
Iniquity descends as I transcend ethereal skies
Isolated, I walk alone no longer now
Unbound, my dreams have all been freed
No want or need will my elation allow
For my wounded reveries no longer bleed
Author notes
It's just that I always feel sleepy. I feel sleepy all the time. Maybe something's wrong with me? I wonder why. Maybe I'm too exhausted. Everyone looks so well. But I'm not. That's why I sleep. In sleep, I can fade away... and no one will notice. But nothing changes. Even if I was to fade away, nothing changes.I didn't know what to do myself.
I lost my direction in life. I couldn't figure it out. I know how painful it is... to lead a life, hurting others and being hurt. I got so confused and lost the meaning of what it is to live. I just wanted to fade away. Just fade away... annoying [person] who hurts [their friends]. Just fade away...
-Hitomi Kanzaki "Escaflowne: The Movie"
Alienation and daydreaming are so clichéd, yes ?
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u did an excellent job on this. maybe they are.
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Damn!
Why is it I always have to look up the meaning to at least one word in your poems... you shame me unintentionally and I love it
So much to say - and I can't guarantee it will be linear.
First (as always) AMAZING write.
Hopelessness is portrayed immensely.
And in my "shiny-happy mood" I have to say... something will matter again. One day you'll find the thing to pull you out of your slump and make you care and feel, get you excited and make you long in a good way. You just have to keep your eyes and mind open.
But I'll come back to this one day - when I am somber, restless and indulging in defeatism and I will sit back and read... nodding my head, wondering how it is someone I don't know was able to see into my mind and put words to all the things I leave unspoken.
Because that is what you have done... you've penned an ode to the things most people shove to the back of their minds and you have done it (as always) in an impressive poetic manner.
You've got game, son! Don't let it go to waste
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All are feelings are the same old clichéd piles of crap felt by all of humanity past and to come, I just use a theasuraus to make them sound interesting enough to me so I can write and not brood (sometimes anyways).
So no shame for you, for sometimes I re-read a write and forget a few meanings for words too
..also, thanks for the wonderfully long, self inciteful comment !!!
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OOO creepy!!!
Opeth's "to rid the disease" goes perfectly with this. No lie...I feel very alone and unhappy now. Me and you feel the same ways alot, good thing we do our best to bounce back into the realm of "normal people" and do normal and right people things to do! Such as with you you care for kids and protect them from ciggarette smoke and I...well I dunno I'm sure I do something fair and good. hopefully! we'll see but I gotta say the middle of this piece really caught me and kinda offgaurd too. Made me feel empty and here I thought you we're going somewhere else with this. Your words in this are perfect too and for some reason this plain black background and dark blue words really pulls me into that dark abyss known as your head...or at least what's inside that head of yours!
luff ya!
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Depression makes you sleep an awful lot I have noticed. Perhaps that's it. This is extremely well writen. I can really relate to this!
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It used to make me want to sleep all the time (still do), but anymore it won't let me sleep but a few hours a day.
Thanks for the read(s).
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ur way of expressing is far from cliched.
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Good work!!!!
Alienation as a theme may be cliché in poetry, but you expressed it in an original way.
There's a change of tone that begins in the fifth verse .... the poem goes from estrangement, emptiness and prayers for absolution to sighs of solace, enchantment and freedom. What happened???? What brought about such a drastic change?
Good quote too!
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To your wonder about the change in the 5th:
Even I cannot help sometimes feel and write about a little bit of hope.
Even if it is only plankton sized in a vast abysal ocean of life.
Though in this case, hope is the peace afforded only by the mercy of death.
(there is always a shadow in my light) -
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Well I'm glad there was a gleam of hope in the darkness .... I only wish it wasn't merely the mercy of death
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