once before

I seem to be losing you and at a abnormally fast rate
But that doesn’t matter now,
I’d lost you months before.

Still,
why you?

Did these words mean anything?
The funny thing now, is that I seem to the speechless.

Just like before you thought I would come back,
Didn’t you?

You lavish me with gifts
Of “love”

NOTE:
To Mommy dearest:
Mommy can’t buy love

I can expect losing you again,
Just like a said
I’d lost you months before.

But in your sinning mind,
Whenever did you think
That I wanted to lose them?

Your trick to lure me
Turned out wrong
I guess you thought when it was all over
I’d come running back into your arms?

Well think again you little bitch 
I’ll give you a little trick.
Don’t come back,
I don’t love you
And this time
I’m telling nothing but the truth

I’ve lost so many childish things
To war and agony
I guess I can lose one more
Like a said
I’d lost you once before