Heartache Express

… I feel numb;  I wonder if this pain could be real
Here we go again… I begin building my wall…
This time it’s made of steel.

I use my knife as an outlet, carving my words with anguish and one simple wish
No one knows my secret..
Darkness comes…tempts me with a kiss.

I cradle my head from the spitting pain..
I’m getting use to this
It happens all the time.. Nothings changed.

I prepare myself to receive the blow..
I put on a mask;
Camouflaging so that my hurt won’t show.

I cry silently wishing I could make the pain stray
My addiction…lost into darkness…
The very light of me…worlds away.

Two times…one day…my heart twisted.. Deceived
Everything happens for a reason.. I was caught up in another world
The land of make believe.

Your words pierce my eyes.. It burns
Drops hit the ground
My hearts screaming to be heard.

Two hearts once connected.
You struck the match…
You watched as it slowly burned.

Feeling everyone out seems to be a trend…
Realizing now what you want..
So ends the secret friend….

Opened the book…started from the beginning ..the very top
You’re sorry I know..
But this…this won’t ever stop.

This won’t be easy as I’m sure you know
*sighs* I still love you
And… I don’t care who knows.

My life’s a train….. slowing down… but not at rest
Don’t get aboard… this train
..this is the heartache express.