A moment

This cold frozen illusion
I have come to the conclusion
That in this darkest hour
I can do nothing to overpower
As the flood gate breaks
And the scars open with all my mistakes
Wishing for the cold illusion
To be more then confusion
And as I sit here weeping
It feels more like I'm sleeping
But this is no fairy tale
This is my everyday jail
I stay with a man I adore
Love forgotten I swore
The man I adore
Deserves so much more
A past so hard to ignore
Unrequited love from the past
Is so fragile in contrast
The words I pray to say
Are left in my mouth to decay
They no longer taste so sweet
Yet I still feel incomplete
As the days slip by
There is no reply
He holds me tight
It can't feel right
But there he will stay
Because he won't be turned away
I can give him all thats left behind
In hope that its not declind
Then I would be alone and lost
With nothing but frost