My mind sets traps for me to find,
And I go in circles, stumbling around, blind.
I walk into a trap, SNAP!, it closes down on me.
And I'm stuck for hours, obsessing endlessly.
I try to find the key to unlock these chains,
But once I'm out, a bigger problem remains...
What causes myself to set these traps for me?
Why can't my mental illness hear my plea?
I'm screaming out so silently, crying out in my brain.
I'm trying so hard to get a foothold on reality, but the reality is: I'm going insane.
This negativity is pressing down upon my chest.
And I walk around like a stranger, feeling possessed.
This can't be the life that I was born to lead.
Surely I wasn't meant to be a failure, I must have been meant to succeed.
But the problem remains, how do I work past the elephant in the room?
How do I beat it, without ending up in my own tomb?
If I knew the answers to these questions, I wouldn't struggle so...
I wouldn't have become accustomed to this whole new brand of low.
I'm trying to see the light, oh god, I am, so hard.
But I feel like my life has gone up in flames, and the only things I have left, are charred.
I'm at the point where happiness must have only ever been a dream.
Tired of trying to make things look like they're not exactly as they seem.
You want the truth? The truth is, I'm hurtling downhill at a breakneck rate.
I tried to hit the brakes, but I'm fearing I'm two seconds too late.
Don't tell me to just "snap out of it" or that "I'm not doing anything to help myself climb out"..
Because you're not in my head or heart, and you can't feel this overwhelming sense of doubt.
I'm trying so hard, and yet pieces keep shattering in this life that I call my own.
So you want to help me because you care? Let me know that I'm not alone.
Author notes
Yeah, so...I just had to get some stuff out. This is how I'm feeling, in the raw.
Let me know what you think, but please..NO CRITS!
Uhhh...yeah. Exactly how I'm feeling.
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I can't say I know where you are, but I can say I have been there. I suffered from a deep depression many years ago and it haunts me to this day. I never want to be there again, and I hope someday you can be happy!! Best of luck! You are a wonderful poet!
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it's great! even the long lines are great and they don't mess it up at all (cuz usually they do, but in this case they don't). yea...
kAsSiE
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I love the way you wrote this and it's so brutally raw. Your great at exspressing your feelings, please keep writing. It seems very natural the way you have. Great write.
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YOUR NOT ALONE IM NOT GNA TEL U I KNW HW U FEEL BT I GT A FEELING SIMULAR IM NT GNA TEL U IT WIL AL B OK BC I DNT BELIEVE DAT EDA BUT I TOTALLY LUV UR POEM!
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thank u thats the way i like people to b
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