Birthdate Of Death

The day before my birthday
my boyfriend surprised me with a giant bear
he gives me a hug and then leaves
I walk home so impatient
can't wait till the next day....

I go to school just another boring day
waiting and waiting for it to end
the bell rings and i run out the class
I go to where my boyfriend always waits for me after school.....
but when i saw him atlast
i felt like i dropped dead right infront of him
but it wasn't for love or anything
I just saw him making out with some chic i didn't even know
i felt the tears coming
then i felt them running down the cheeks

I ran home
i busted in in my house
i grabbed the kitchen knife
And i found the the giant bear he had given me for my birthday
with total rage
I destroyed it completely
then for the last destruction
with tears running down my face i pointed the knife to my wrist
I started cutting them deeply
i fell to my knees
and waited to die
until i did