you won't ever know

you'll never know,
just how badly
you break me down

it's enough to bleed me dry
and enough for me to die,
it's enough for me to stop believing in the sky
and believing all the lies

I am scarred because of you,
and I don't feel like much because of you
I hurt a lot of the time because of you
and I can't get you out of my mind,
because of you

you'll never know,
just what you had
even through the good, the worst and the bad

"I love you babe."

how many times have you said that before?
and to think, you might have said that more
to her than me

you'll never know,
how much I bleed to the point
where I'm empty
and how much I wish,
it were you

I regret those thoughts
because they are cruel,
and I refuse to let you seep through

still, you'll never know,
all the things I've written
and how much,
I wish you'd have actually cared.