I'm going completely fucking insane if I'm not already there
I need someone to talk to, someone to really care
I really need to scream, get this all out of me
Break down and cry and make everybody see
The reality of how I am and what a mess I'm in
Show them I NEED HELP... but where do I begin?
The flashbacks are constantly in my head, they just won't go away
So how am I supposed to just be able to go about my day
Like everybody else does, smiling and carefree
I am not capable of that, what is wrong with me?!?!?!
I was told to get over myself and everything he did
Well believe me, I'd love to be completely rid
I was told that I am choosing to be this sad
As if anybody would want this! I can't help feeling so bad!
It feels like my head is exploding, my heart is breaking too
I'm falling apart from the inside out, please tell me... WHAT DO I DO?
I feel like I have nobody to be there when I cry
I'm a complete and total wreck and I know I want to die
But I can't do that either, how do I get out?
Please help me understand what this is all about.
I'm supposed to go to therapy but that's been cancelled twice
So what do you do when even your counsellors don't want to give you advice?
I can't sleep, I can't eat and the pain in my heart is too much
I'm so so sick of feeling alone, feeling so out-of-touch
I'm so angry after being told to get over it
How insensitive... nobody has the right, they haven't felt this shit!
Two people could have experiences that are exactly the same
And still they would not know the other person's pain
Because everybody feels things differently and heals in their own time
Everyone's pain is different and I can't handle mine
I wish I could 'get over it', she has no fucking clue!
I need someone to be there. HELP ME. Tell me, WHAT DO I DO?
Author notes
So lost. Complete mess. Breaking down. Need help.
AP Name - SinfulHymn
Wrote this 10 minutes ago... so the hopeless time is now...
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wow... this is such a great poem... i love the raw emotion from it.... and your right no body knows how you feel or even completely understand, but i have also had peolpe tell me " get over it, your making the choice to be sad" i have had councilers cancel on me... i have also felt like i was backed in corner with no way out besides death, but that is a very desperate choice... i i just want you to know, i have an ear for listening, and i am all very much willing to help if i can. stand strong, cry, scream, but keep safe.
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great poem! nice flow. I read it out loud and it was very smooth. I understand were your coming from. Men are just plain asses huh! Don't worry about what others say you have to work this out on your own. Sadly the only thing to cure a broken heart is time. My favorite part was:
Well believe me, I'd love to be completely rid
I was told that I am choosing to be this sad
As if anybody would want this! I can't help feeling so bad!
It feels like my head is exploding, my heart is breaking too
I'm falling apart from the inside out, please tell me... WHAT DO I DO? -
wow. this write had so much emotion. i usually get bored when trying to read a poem this long but this really kept my attention the whole time. its a very sad poem, but i think writing is a great way to vent. it helps to get things out there. i've felt the same way before and had people tell me to just 'get over it' and i kno its not that easy. hopefully things will get bettter for you. and i hope you finally get to see your counselor. i couldnt imagine how i'd feel if mine had cancelled on me twice..
i loved the first line of the poem. very creative.
and i also like how you emphasized some parts with all caps or extra punctuation. really shows the emotion -
good write but sad. Reminds me of how I've felt recently. If you ever need to talk or just get stuff out you can always talk to me. I dont know if I could be of any help but you could try lol.
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:[ sad but such a good write.
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Arg!
You KNOW I am here for you, I will always be here for you! That is not ever going to change!
Message me when you feel like this, talk to me, I will always listen to you. You are like a sister to me, I want you to know I care about you, I want to help you so much. Talk to me...
The write was beautiful, very strong emotion.
~~silently-breaking
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