And time was never here or there
As it were, was thin as air
I exist in a fraction of a moment
Came as an old soul went
Only to feel invisible
Miserable
Beauty only skin deep
and we seek to keep
Nothing
When you look at me
You look through me
Wonder what I have to offer
I empty myself
As sharp as knives
I know no hunger
Like the one
to feel alive
A kiss
A touch
A smile
Anything
Everything
I seek it through
what is around me
but its all a mirage
In camouflage
And it's hiding from me
So I play
Hide and go seek
Cause I will not except
that it does not exist
When I am here
out of 70 trillion possibilities
There's something
I must have missed
I want to find it in your eyes
So I look
I stare
For an uncomfortable amount of time
Till you crack a smile
And tell me I'm crazy
And I feel alive



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