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Not To Be

To live in a world
Where we’re defined by age
Fills me with darkness
Fills me with rage

I’m in love with a guy
That’s five years older
But because of this difference
He’s growing slightly colder

But I love him the same
For he’s the best guy I know
And I know he likes me
Even if it don’t show

I sense this between us
But he’s having second thoughts
Just to think of losing him
And my heart that he caught

It rips me apart
That he thinks like that
Thinks I’m too young
Thinks I’m a brat

But I can’t tell how I feel
For it’ll make him feel bad
And even if I’m in pain
I never want him sad

The smile on his face
Can make my heart soar
Even if I’ll never see him
Knocking on my door

But I’ve had pain before
And I know how to cope
I just can’t believe
I’ve been such a dope

To think he would want me
When five parts our years
So I wear my mask again
To hold back my tears

But no matter what I do
I can’t keep from crying
This pain is truly different
And I feel like I’m dying

Maybe he was the one
But the world was sadly cruel
It kept us far apart
Because of it’s one rule

The one that crushed my heart
And made me cry red tears
And all because me and him
Were parted by five years

I know someone will say
That “age is just a number”
And I even hold that thought
As I’m falling into my slumber

So as I dream awake
His face is all I see
And I love him even more
Even if it’s not to be
~Kay~

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  • stop a bullet
    June 2

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    This, is amazing. I think.. mainly because i am going through EXACTLY THAT right now.. i want someone 6 years older.. and i have for a long time. but he's grown distant lately.. and it hurts. Sorry, i'm ranting. An amazing piece. I really enjoyed reading it. Great Job and thank you for entering!!!


    • Abstract Image
      June 2
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      thx for the comment and i hope everything works out like mine did. I can't go a single day without him saying i love you to me =)


  • xXFreedom-of-LoveXx
    April 6
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    thanks for joing my contest this is a good poem and i wish you good luck


  • csmmoms2
    March 18

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    Stunning

    I've always felt that the phrase "I guess it wasn't meant to be" is all wrong. There's nothing pre-ordained it's all in what we make of it. I guess it was mean't to be that you'd write such a fine poem. -c


  • perfectsunset gold member
    March 16

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    Aww this was such an emotional write
    yet so beautifully expressed.

    These lines stuck out to me and really touched me in a personal way as I can relate

    "But I can’t tell how I feel
    For it’ll make him feel bad
    And even if I’m in pain
    I never want him sad"

    --loved this..

    Wonderful poem

    Best of luck & thanks for entering


  • This Is My Story
    March 5
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    Wow that was amazing. And truly very sad...Im so sorry.


  • HatedLoveDieingRose
    March 2
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    wow

    i know how you feel. good poem.

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