Anything Else?

I wish on a daily basis that it didn't feel this way
Something so intangible to escape as your own head
A maddening sense of hopelessness
That picks at the fissures of your brain
Hiding within the folds only to claw through and pull at your soul
That boy who only wished to be a man
Grabbing my limp body with lust and hunger
Small and drugged over Kool-Aid
New Kids on the Block playing in the background
I think somewhere within that 6 year old frame
I was screaming in protest
But what do I know of sex and desire and molestation?
For the night I was your ragdoll
And till this day the smell of cigarettes make my skin crawl
But the feasting didn't stop there
I was to be preyed on by the perverse
Sought after by their libidos
What more do you want from me?
Is it not enough to slide your tongue across my lips?
Is it not enough to hold my throat and smile?
Is it not enough to create these bruises on my body?
It's never enough for their insecurity
I can only fight what demons they unleash
That wait so savagely behind cool smiles
My eyes do so deceive me
What do you want from me?
WHAT do you want from me?!
Gratification.....is all they want from me