Unwanted

You check your hair before you walk out the door
You check your lipstick in the mirror of the car
You 'accidentally' bump arms in the car and laugh
You get to the appartment and it seems everythings going good
Until....

She pushes you off her
She rejects your kisses
She laughs when u try to look cute

You get this feeling that your not use too
You realize, your unwanted
You begin to wonder why you came in the first place
You think of what u can do when u get home

You choke back tears
You laugh at the jokes
You sigh when shes not looking
You still feel like shit


You put your jacket on
She asks you whats wrong
You smile and say 'Nothing'
She knows, you can feel it

Its silent on the ride home
and u feel sick to your stomach
You want to cry, but u cant
Not infront of her


She reaches for your hand
You pull away, You feel unwanted
She knows somethings wrong
You feel unwanted

YOu get home and strate for the kitchen
The feeling is still there
You pick up the knife
You begin to bleed

They find you and the note the next morning saying
" I'm sorry that i couldnt make it through life, but I knew i was unwanted'