Everything and Nothing.

I thought i would fear this,
I thought i would feel pain,
Loss,
Anger,
But now at the end off this road,
Is'nt it funny, I feel nothing.

Not betrayal,
Not heartbreak,
Not even the hollow feeling when someone you love leaves you,

The only tear i shed,
Was when i held my child in my arms,
Waiting for her to stop calling your name in tears,
Waiting for her to stop calling for you,
Waiting for her to fall into peaceful sleep,

Its not that i don't love you,
For i do and always will,
But when angry words and harsh treatments visited,
When drinks and laughs flowed that all but me where invited too,
I knew you would go,

He was there,
The man you ran to last,
Whether your plan was tru or just a cover for your lust i know not,
And now never will,
But the last time you slept within his shelter you lied about it,
You and he both,
Trust is hard to come by, and harder to get back after its shattered,
More then a simple kiss and hung can repair.

Goodbye my lover,
My Friend,
Know that you will live in my memories,
But my heart is now sealed and barred in steel from you,
Entrance forbidden, tears unflowing, Love unfeeling,

Forever. . . . .