so you two finally split...

okay,
so you broke up with her like i wanted,
so tell me something then.
why do i feel like
complete
and
total
shit?
I mean,
you are better off without her,
we both know that.
she was horrible
and she treated you like shit.
no one liked her.
it's just the fact,
that i finally told you what i thought of her,
and you left her,
and nothing has changed.
i ruined a form of happiness for you
for my own selfish reasons.
where did it get me?
no where
except for in a pit of guiltiness.
i guess that's what i get for loving you.

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so... my best friend finally broke up with his fiance because i finally told him what i thought of her... i held my tongue for one year and three fucking months, and that was too long. but i do feel kind of guilty because for some god awful reason, he was kind of happy with her. but, he is so much happier now without her. i think it might also be because him and i are still just best friends... i love this guy too much for my own good. blah!!