I want to smile, but i cry,
I want to live, but inside i die,
I want to be happy but im sad,
I want to be normal, but im considered mad.
I look in the mirror, wipe away the blood stained tear,
How can i continue, when all i do is live in fear.
I've lost sence of reality, who am i? who are you?
I have know idea what is happening, or what i should do.
Each piece of my heart,
Broken so long ago,
Yet on the outside i am whole,
the internal cracks do not show.
Iv lost hope in you,
In the world around,
Because no one is there to catch me,
When I pelt down to the ground.
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yer crap i know but i feel so shit, just needed to get it out. sorry
I hope this doesnt trigger anything for any one. Please leave me a comment, good, bad, what ever you feel. Just please be a little sensative as they are all true stories about my life so far x
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Beautiful!!!
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well i am still new to your 'crap' but i quite like this rubbish. makes me wonder how your gems must sparkle. oh and line 17 is i've missing an e, and i dont know if sense is spelled that way in england but if it is nevermind hehe
i really loved your rhyming skills too!
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Wow, I love this, I can relate to wanting to get better but to feel yourself spiraling into self destruction, and it's like people look at you and you seem noramle maybe, but in your head you are fighting a battle.If you want to tlak you can send me a message.
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this is so very good!
deep thoughts penned here, "you take a bite of my heart and dont even take time to chew it you spit it to the ground" I been there I like your fierce sadness
Blessings
Rend
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Meh. I get it. It's shit feeling like that, like everything you want to be you just can't be because you feel so low. Doesn't help when you've got people around you telling you you should be a certain way and when you say that you can't you're just told that you're not trying and whatever (lol I'm just ranting from experience here, still annoyed about what I was told tonight so that's what this is about)
*hugs*
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I agree with starving4perfection, dont ever say sorry, there is nothing to be sorry about. Letting out your emotion is a key thing that you need to do. It kills me to know that you are in pain and I cant help you. I am always here and I care so much so dont give up hope and keep on fighting.
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dont say sorry! its no way near shit! everyone needs to get their feelings out sometime...im sorry you feel so bad hun talk to me...love you xxx
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Wow. You dont know the power im your words. You have no clue how amazing of a poet you are.
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i miss you sooo much!!
why don't you talk to me anymore?!?!
you know that i am ALWAYS here for you, so please, talk to me! your driving me insane
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Each piece of my heart,
Broken so long ago,
Yet on the outside i am whole,
the internal cracks do not show.
I'm right there with you, Sweetie. I can relate so well to these passionate words of inner sorrow. It's good to get them out, and you've done it so well!
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