An Awakening of Purpose

I don't want to be grounded in my fantasies.
I want to feel the fire of my desires coursing through my veins, boiling inside of me.

I don't want to pull back, and hold off, muddying the waters of my intentions.
I want the purity of intense passion.

I don't want to cool the heat of my emotions in sensibilities,
I want to feel.
I want to be seen,
I want to be heard.

I don't want to fall off the edge,
I want to jump.

I want to meet my match, and be challenged.

I am tired of pretending to be less then what I am.
I am done playing a role.
I want to scare myself with the intensity of my life.

I am tired of being meek,
I am tired of being tired,
I am tired of waiting for a perfection that never comes.

I am tired of being told that I am intimidating,
and because of it, I temper myself
to appear less then what I am.

I am tired of being only one thing or another, I am both.
I am more then the sum of other people's fantasies of me.
I am strong, and weak, as are we all.

I don't want to be grounded by anyone ever again.
My wings were not made to be clipped.

And that's how I feel about that,

and if I scare you off,
and if I am too much,
then perhaps it is only perception,
and truly,
it is you that just isn't enough.