I am writing this because...

I need to be hugged
I need to understand what is coming over me
I can see that you don't feel the same  way
I need you to know i just want you
I need my dad back
I miss him so much
I can't stand waiting any long to die
I am so upset with everything
I don't know if i will live through this
I need to understand i belong here
I'm done listening to all your lies
Everyone lies
I don't want to believe in you anymore
I don't even believe in myself
I'm dying,drowned in the river
of the tears i cried
Why am I feeling this way again
It's like grade 9 all over again
Back to my old habits
I don't want to go back to these days
The past is coming back
It has been hunting me for so long
And i think I'm too weak to face it again
I'm getting so weak,tired
Everything is just coming towards
me like a huge black cloud
I need to realized I am dying inside
Hurt is covering over me
i don't know how to take it a way
My dreams are all fading a way
Falling from a cloud deep into the ground
I am now slipping a way from all i used to be
I can't find the real me
The light of my life is going out
I am now dying into a deep sleep
I cannot be awaken from
Not even from "a kiss"
Nothing will break this dark spell
The candle will never be lighten again
For I am dead
to the world
to me
to you
to everyone i know
I am 'DEAD'