bitter ends and loud silences.

i hate the fact that everyone was right, and once again, i'm the one with the shame of having to admit that i was wrong. i was wrong about you. you fucked me over again, worse now than ever before, and this time i mean it when i say that i cannot and will not ever forgive you.
the silence between us is louder than a nuclear bomb blast, and my hate for you thrives.
what hurts the most is that it ended so badly. everything you put me through makes me think of the song "love rhymes with hideous carwreck". if the situtation had been oh so slightly different, maybe i wouldn't have to try so hard to get over this. it's only been a week and a day, and every day is a challenge for me. seeing you is difficult for me, so i can't imagine the rage and jelousy you feel every time you see me happy with him. you always were the jealous/controlling type. so go ahead. tell your friends that i'm the one that cheated and screwed things up, make me seem like the asshole. because i know that late at night, you'll lie awake and know the truth, and it will eat away at your soul
if you even have one.
i can't wait for the day that you miss me, if you don't already. because when you do, you'll realize that YOU are the one who lost something that you'll NEVER get back. and when you realize that, you can expect me to look up at you and laugh, knowing that i'm the one that won in the end.
i always win
in the end.