Confused

Nothing I can do helps me forget you.
I can't get you out of my head.
Fate introduced us but the distance
teases us.
How could we know each other
but yet not be together?
I hate that I love you so much.
I wonder if my life would be worse or
better if I never met you.
But now that you are here
I can't live without you.
I've tried and failed.
I hate that you're my drug.
But what am I to you?
Nothing?
Everything?
I don't really know anymore.
They ask what's wrong.
I give no answer.
Make no attempt to reply.
Slowly I'm dying inside.
I've learned not to show my emontions.
They only get thrown back at you.
So what now?
Where do we go from here.
I wish I had the answer.
But the only thing I can do is wait.
Wait to get my heart broken again.
Or wait till this pain finally takes me away from
the misery that overwhelms me.
I don't know,
and I don't care.