you would always brush my cheek gently and
I'd dig in with my fingernails and cry 'cause I'm helpless
and your identity is wrapped up in me.
I've never been good with responsibility.
Blue-grey eyes reflected the stars
you once told me how to love thunderstorms
but I couldn't grasp the lightning bolts
and rain never told me the world was only renewing itself.
angel tears left scars on my arms while I trembled for lack of words.
I always knew perfection was elusive
but I was sure it could be caught someday.
You justified my belief in flawlessness
because I was sure that was all you were
and to believe someone wanted me was only necessary.
your eyes lit up when I murmured fallacies and my heart melted.
all I wanted was to love you back.
we traced the constellations and I learned to fake a smile
when you told me the myth behind each one.
useless hope broke my heart.
you were trying so hard.
Author notes
I don't think this is done...sort of based on my life, but none of it's actually happened. hm. :/ I'll work on it.
A contest entry
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Comments
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i love this poem and the concept of trying to love someone you don't love. It's funny how them loving you makes you want to love them, but how it just can't create what isn't there. Sometimes it never grows to be anything more than like.
Good job...I'm going to add you to my favorites because your work reminds me of two other poets I'm very fond of on this site, and who made me develop a love for free verse and prose that I never thought possible. In fact, I write almost all my poetry that way now. Wonderful job!
"Mask"
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your title is 'tracing constellations with our fingertips'
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