THE SMOKE CLEARS AND IN WHISPERING WAVES OF SELF-MUTILATION
I CAN SEE THE DARK SKY FALL TO PIECES.
THE WORLD IS SOMETIMES TOO HEAVY TO BREATHE
AND THE DEAD SURROUND ME LIKE AN OCEAN.
I CAN'T RECOGNIZE THE REFLECTION LOOKING BACK THROUGH THE MIRROR.
I ONLY GRASP THE CONCEPT OF WHAT IT'S LIKE TO WALK THROUGH LIFE
WITH A STRANGER HOLDING A KNIFE TO MY NECK.
THE EMPTY SHELL OF A SHATTERED GIRL I KNOW IS MY NEW SKIN.
PAIN IS MY ONLY HORIZON,
HATE, IS MY ONLY FORM OF FLATTERY,
UGLY IS THE WORLD AROUND ME,
AND NOWHERE BEYOND THE INFINITE INFRASTRUCTURE OF THE ETERNAL LONELY SOUL
CAN MY BLACKENED HEART BE FOUND.
IF YOU WANT A GLIMPSE OF TORMENT AND BITTERSWEET VISIONS DELIGHT,
I'LL GLADLY CUT MY HEAD OFF
SO YOU CAN LOOK DOWN THE HOLE.
NOTHING THERE WILL BRING THE JOYFUL BLISS YOU CRAVE.
DRINKING LIGHTER FLUID TO START A FIRE INSIDE MY GUT,
I AM ON A SLOW PAINFUL RIDE THROUGH THE UNDERBELLY OF HELL
AND I WON'T MIND IF THIS IS WHERE WE SAY GOODBYE
AND GO OUR SEPERATE WAYS.
I AM INSIDE OF YOU.
LIVING AND BREATHING.
I AM EVE.
AND I DO NOT WANT YOU TO LIKE ME...
inspired by a song.
Comments
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a very sad..
statement at the end, "i do want you to like me" well that's a powerful , dark, and depressing place to find yourself..to me it feels like a call for help, but i'm no doctor..

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eh...yeah, it was a dark period of my life, but today i am well. and i am thankful for that. thanx again for reading!
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